Remembering Myself: Elder

Ahoy, brothers and sisters.

It may not seem like such a reality, but I have been told by Aset herself and Lilith, amongst others that I am an Elder. My wand was stripped of me, that much I know, amongst a few other things. I have amnesia from PTSD and I am slowly but surely working on reestablishing my memories.

I am not interested in any derogatory comments saying that I am not one, but if they are constructive and present evidence against such a claim, I will gladly hear such words.

If any of our brothers and sisters out there, in here, can help me rekindle my memories I would be so greatly appreciative. Please, anyone. I am pathetically desperate, perhaps, but I need the help and I am not afraid to ask for it. There is just fear, lest you all not aid a poor one such as myself. I know there is great knowledge from ages long past, but I have been tormented and tortured as a child this time around, in this body, and as I felt powerless, I forgot most of what has happened to me. It has lasted for years, and finally with the help of meditation, psychedelics, and proper feed/heal ratios, it is all coming back, in steps. I can't help but feel I chose for this all to happen many years ago.

Many old memories of spellcasting, enchantments, stealth, alchemy, etc. have come back to me, as well as a surefire way to Manifest. If somebody needs something in return, I could always use a good teacher, or a student. Many things to teach, inside this soul.

Much love and blessings. May Enki shower you with his trickster gifts. Aset watches over you, brothers and sisters. I see her eye every night in the sky.

sounds like Etu Malku.

Not exactly sure how to say this but your very post is proof against the things it claims. You're obviously new and inexperienced otherwise that would be obvious to you as well.

Aset doesn't watch over you. You are falsely claiming divine power when clearly you are delusional or pretending.

Your repressed memories and pain of this lifetime do not make you an Asetian. Lifetimes of pain have been experienced by Asetians.

Aset and Lilith? Have you only read Michael Ford and Luis Marques? It sounds like it.

You speak blasphemously of the Asetians.

They are never desperate, never seeking help in their own soul search from strangers on the internet, and never exhibiting such vulnerability to those who may or may not be against their own soul work.

I know it may seem that way, but those experiences and visions etc. from lilith/Aset are probably your own inner creations trying to teach you something you've yet to learn. Have you tried interpreting them, without taking them for what you see them as automatically?

Intuition tells me things are not this simple. And Lilith I actually met and learned her name before ever being familiar with any sort of lore.

Many times I have seen myself in another place, or in multiple places at once, higher dimensional existence, with me on the walls or standing on the axis of a corner of the room. I was greatly focusing the other day in one of our chairs and my own arms came out from the other side and grabbed these arms.

Blasphemously? You dare say that about me? You know very little about me, thus far. Keep those sorts of attacks to yourself. I would not put it past someone with your attitude that you can feed even through the internet, and the way you do it is disrespectful and uncalled for. Blasphemy was not my intention and therefore that was not what was achieved. Your interpretation has power, and can create many realities for yourself, and thus impose itself upon others. As you did with me.

Simply because I mentioned only a few names, which would not be indicative of all of my knowledge and experience, it is not accurate for you to assume I only have experience with so little, in your eyes.

One of the biggest points I would like to make is that I do not consider you strangers. I feel kinship, and that is enough for me to reach out. I posted this despite many feelings of fear that I would be shot down.

Jonathan, that may very well be the case. This is why I reach out, to discover. Although a recurring theme, even before I ever discovered Asetian culture was that I was over 6000 years old. Perhaps it's a schizophrenic idea, but I take everything as something that has reason behind it, even if it is only slight.

I do interpret them. I am a questioner, heavily.

Anyway, I desired help, not chastising. Did I deserve chastising is the real question, though; it is not deserved.

Any more help? I reach out in ways that may not make everyone the most comfortable, but I have always strived to be more extroverted with an introverted approach. Connection gets you places.

Anyway, I'm prepared to be wrong about this entire thing. I just want more evidence of such.

Thanks for the words and thoughts, everyone. Many blessings.

Asetians do not assume the position of kind to people just because they haven't been mean to them from the start.

You have to earn your respect. You speak of the tradition as if you know nothing of it which is why we all assume you do not.

Aset is not one of "many blessings" to strangers on the web or all of humanity.

Seeing yourself projected doesn't have anything to do with the Aset Ka.

If you feel you are an elder, you would've at least written to the Aset Ka, or at most claimed your rightful place in the Order.

Connection gets you places in the societal world. Otherwise you're better looking within. Looking within doesn't mean learning from yourself and accepting.
It means questioning everything you learn about yourself and otherwise.

No one here is in kinship with you. If you feel that way for strangers you will be greatly deceived trying to follow the Asetian path.

Then I view you as disposable.

Dispose of me then.

Heruset wrote:Dispose of me then.

I will continue on my journey despite your hostility. You are disposable, however I have no intention of doing so yet. You are useful, and you force me to question myself in more hostile ways, which will make me stronger.

Many thanks, but you're still seen as a hostile force.

To truly go ahead and get somewhere, you have to learn how to benefit from an enemy like you would a friend, or even a relative. This is my intention in regards to you.