What am I?

have you ever stared at the moon and want to be something more? I once did. When I was young I got low. I got to the point I didn't know why I did the things I did and why I didn't fit in. I fell into a depressive state. One night I took a walk to clear my head and I got a sick feeling of being followed. As I approached my house out of the corner of my eye I saw a black figure come out from below the light. When I turned it was gone. That night I stared at the moon and wondered why. The next morning I woke up sick, very sick I felt weak and tired. This sickness was with me for weeks. The last night of my sickness was a harvest moon. I took another walk and again felt like I was being followed this time when I rounded the corner from my house the figure wasn't behind me he was in front of me! I stopped and just stood there. Then he was gone. Maybe a neighborhood kid messing with me? The next morning I felt better, no! I was stronger! I can't explain it but I didn't feel sick I felt like I could run for miles. I felt so great and going to school for the first time in a while I felt happy. It wasn't till I got to school that I noticed something sitting in class and this girl was doing something and I started to predict what she would do and she did them I started to be able to predict a lot of people's actions and movements. I could feel their emotions I got so good at it people would come to me for advice or I would go talk to them because I could tell when they were upset. I got confident I got to the point I wouldn't fear anyone because I could sence their anger or predict their movements. I could dodge a punch and return one if I wanted. The cold didn't bother me and for some reason i would get headaches on sunny days. I felt incredible but it came at a price. I soon found It hard to sleep and when I did sleep I had dreams. In these dreams I was strong, a warrior, but I also had nothing. Everything I knew was gone. And in all my dreams there was one thing consistent I would always see that night on the street with a black figure in front of me. But one dream was different and I remember it so vividly. I was driving down a local road when I suddenly lost control of my car and crashed I got out unharmed as I got up a red truck pulled up and the back door opened and a lady held out her hand and asked me to get in, and assured me there was nothing to fear as she was there to help me. I couldn't explain why but I got in and drove away. So one day I sat down and explained this to someone who is said to have visions. She said to me the figure in my dreams were me, and that somehow I gained the ability to sense the spirit energy of those around me and was able to connect to them which explained why I could know what they were thinking or doing. As for the sudden strength boost is came as a result of this spirit energy. This eventually lead me to research into this and found about vampirism. Although I'm still not sure on this I wanted to ask about the figure I'm seeing. The lady I sat with said this was a vision of myself but why? Why is it I see myself and it doesn't make sense to the figure I saw the night before I got sick and the night before I got better? Anyone have any idea of this? Or any insight on what happened to me to make me like this?

Were you dropped on your head as a child?

I don't mean to be rude but.. were you?
Or perhaps you have read far to much teenage vampire fiction novels.
Your tale sounds like the plot line of several teenage vampire rom com's.
I am not accusing you of lying but I will say it's highly unlikely that this happened.
If it did in fact happen then I would suggest it was simply adrenaline because of the creep following you.
Your heart got pumping.
Nothing more.
Nothing less.
But hey, I could be wrong.
What do I know right?

Hello Stellana, good to see you in the forum diligently dispelling nonsense.

My only question is when you got very sick, how did the doctor describe the problem and the solution for it? I mean, if one was so sick for so long, I know one would see a doctor, right? HeHe. You did not quite cover all the bases there, my boy.... There is no one here that believes this sorry description. Straighten up and do some reading here and then become something other than a delusional wanna bee.

I would like to start by saying I knew very well by posting this I would gain such reactions as I have. I will go on record by saying I'm not here for approval from anyone I posted this because a friend asked me to in hopes of answers. Say what you want but what I say here is nothing if non-sense. You see this as a wanna-be story but just because it's not your typical accepted vampire story you write it off as a "dropped on your head as a kid" delusion. Just because it's something you've never experianced first hand doesn't mean it's not real. I can already anticipate many replies to my comment so I'll leave with this remark. I figured a group most times being so misunderstood be society would be the most open to things. I guess I was wrong!

No. Your focus is terribly wrong. You can convince yourself of this but others can see what you really look like. You are focusing on how to become different from those around you to see proof of you being special. So many think the vampire life is centered around blood. It is not. This is all wrong. Vampires are made in the astral or higher dimension realm. If you do not live there, you are falling for all the movie and delusional stuff the world is marketing to make money off you. You have done nothing but fall completely for non...sense...(your word).

It's people like you who give us a bad name.
This isn't Twilight my friend..
I am not sure if you've noticed but nobody believes you..
What I believe is that you should seek a psychiatrist perhaps.
Or write a book.
You're very imaginative.

Stellana you have no right to say that, you know nothing about me. What you know is a story don't be so quick to judge someone by the cover. This is many peoples down falls. Don't get me wrong I understand where you all come from this sounds weird and I get that but I wouldn't post it without purpose. I've been a member of the vampire community for 9 years I'm no amiture. As I said previously I need no approval or acceptance from you!

I would also like to point out on crucial thing here you all seem to be overlooking never once did I say the above story was of me! I do believe in my above comment I said I posted this because a friend asked me to!

this is nothing but smoke and mirrors with your post.  If you want something, ask straight out.  This is why you are not taken seriously here.  It is apparent you are just beating around the bush.  Not being truthful is something we do not deal with kindly here.  9 years?  How is that supposed to be any meritorious service?
People that have lived in a nut house for nine years should be treated with more respect than one that just got there? I don't think so.   Get real or get lost, kid. Trying to tell some story based on someone else wanting info...lol. Tell that to your psychiatrist.

By the way, the story is not an original at all. I have seen it written up as well as seen movies about the same thing. This is why you will find no respect here. Your cover has been blown. You are another troll from the park.

I completely agree with what Maxx said.
Also,
I hate to be the grammar Nazi but your spelling mistakes are outrageous.
For someone who thinks that they are so experienced and what not could you please at least learn how to spell.
It's "amateur" not "amiture".
I am not trying to pick on you, that's not my style BUT your story is rubbish. I'm sorry but it is.
I notice that you are new.
I myself am new BUT you don't see me telling tall tales about a dark creature who followed me home and fang raped me and now I'm a member of the undead.
I am on this website to gain knowledge and maybe make some friends. I am not on here to tell tall tales. Take my advice. Be yourself. Stop with the games. Are you making stuff up because your life is too average? I bet you as a person could have great potential but you get no respect when you talk bullshit like that.

And I kno whea yo mamma liv...beside tha.

It's interesting he claims he never said the original post was about him.... interesting indeed, when one reads all the "I"s in his post. Clear from the wording.....

"Salutem" I agree with what has been said here. You seriously need to do some research.

Yes I found that rather entertaining. Clearly he didn't like the comments that he was getting so he decided to make a weak attempt to cover his own ass.
I cannot seem to comprehend how some people can actually write things like this and think people would actually take him or her seriously.
It appears our friend is more of a role player.