Hello to everyone

Hello to everyone.
Just wanted to say few things before I write any other post ( which may never occur, I prefer reading. But maybe someone will read this and comment on something, that would be great)

I have been interested in occult and stuff like that since I was eight or so ( harry potter generation, lol). There was always hunger present in me, which resulted in being the fattest kid in school - I was eating just for the sake for eating, drinking coke and stuff. I started messing around with energy, LD, on purely fantasy level, kind of pretending to be special or something. Then, I tried to drain someone. Just like that, visualised it and there you go, instant relaxation, drunk like state ( which I did not know at the moment, I was maybe 12). I started to practice it. Suddently people started to like me more, smile, agree, listen even though I was extremely stuttering. I started to end sentences before them ( well, pretty common, but not five times per day), calling them as they were about to call me, I started to have this funny "word thought" 5 or 10 seconds before event occured - think "dog" and dog barks in the middle of the night disturbing a hour of silence. Then I figured out I can live on 1500 calories or less, drive a bike for few hours and just drain environment. Lost 25 kg in a year or two, stopped when family started to think I am anorectic.
And 10 years passed. No improvement or downgrade. Draining on daily basis, sometimes without even noticing it - I pat someone on a shoulder or shake hand a bit longer and they start eating thirty minutes later. Or get sick if I target one individual, sooner or later ( I never get sick, unless I stop feeding. Alergies went away too). It would be nice to know if I can somehow extend my life by using those skills. If it is placebo, fine, but no matter how hard I try, I cannot finish 4 reps ( bench press or deadlift) with given weight, and if I drain at least hour before, I hit six with ease ( preworkouts sucks compared with energy drain ). By the way, when I drain, I get funny sensation on my back, like tension of muscles, and then I feel urge to smile and sprint and laugh. I did few "placebo" supplements without knowing that they do not work, and to be honest, I do not think it is a placebo. It is just too strong.
And by the way, do you guys believe in aerokinetics and stuff like this? I used to fantasise about it in the past when I was a kid, but you can never tell if the wind was induced by you or it was just a coincidence. Stopped due to lack of progress, sometimes worked, sometimes not - feeding works everytime until I am so full that I cannot sleep at night, I just get into studying until dawn.
I would like to expand my knowledge and "skills" if there are any, in my free time, that's why I am here.

It ended up pretty long, but whatever. Have fun reading

yes, you can extend your life by renewing and rebuilding cells of the body by drawing life from any place in this universe as well as out of this universe.  A strong focus to accomplish this with thought creation is the start of the process.  I do not know the extent of the extension of the individual life as it will vary per individual but I am speaking of drawing energy from sources like the sun, bodies of water, etc.  It is not widely taught but it is doable. A bonus with this process is the elimination of sickness with it as it will increase the immune system.

Thanks for answer Maxx!
I am glad to see that this is a thing, not just my delusions. Well, I feel it, and have few proofs, but still.
I tried it with sun and with water, but water did not work out, and sun only in low doses - like exposure for few hours while riding bike across the spain in summer - despite the temperature, I was feeling fine and skin was colder than usually. But I could not do this to the point of overflowing and be really satisfied. It was like eating a lettuce compared with pizza - same volume, less fun. I guess I am just bad with raw energy. On the other hand, wind and mechanical and heat itself is pretty easy to obtain, I think so. I was even wondering about electricity and electrical devices, but other people are proven source, so why bother. Maybe some of you guys have some experience with this, or know any downsides to feeding off people ( it might be unethical, I try to choose mean people )

you are missing the point entirely.  you need to go back to 101 and learn how to use your thought processes to create what you focus on.  The business of stealing energy from others is a misdirection created by groups like the one you mention in your private message to me along with the movie and media crowd.  They keep their followers in prison focusing on their trivial pursuit of nothingness all the while milking them of pocket money in support of their lifestyle.  Thousands need to wake up and shake off these parasites.

An imbalance that you are asking about occurs in nature for what ever reason but is fixed in a natural process without having to draw from someone else.  A person that is short of energy will pass by another person that has an overabundance of energy and the negative will draw the excess from the positive person without doing it willfully.  Balance takes place in a natural way.  This is how the universe balances itself.  We do not have to manipulate this.

Thanks for answer. You are probably right. When I think now about it it makes perfect sense. I was aware that it is kind of parasitic, but pretty much any food was "someone else" in the past, plant or animal.
Looks like I have to work on things like sun and do not drain people. No shortcuts

Welcome, Mirro.