My name is Julia grace

Hello, my name is Julia grace I want to start off by saying I am honored to be among people who are determined and respected members of their community, and I thank you for allowing me to be in your space.

I have only just recently begun to try to find real truth in some of the things I’ve learned over the years. I hope this community will accept me in whatever way I fit. I do not identify as vampiric; however, I am drawn to the ancient worlds and have been since I was a small child.

My time is spent in my room reading and sifting through knowledge. I do not party, among other things. I spend all my hours researching, studying, and sleeping.

I began at the age of 18 experiencing things that I would place into the Native American category, as I am Choctaw and Cherokee. However, I had also discovered an ancestor of mine. He was excommunicated from the church in England, taught William Defoe at a dissenters’ school he owned, wrote the compendium phisacae (an absolute hilarious book to read in this day and age might I add)and was an occultist apparently. He’s my favorite uncle. My grandfather was a 32nd-degree Mason, and while this has nothing to do whatsoever with myself, it is the entire reason I started looking into these things to begin with, so I find them appropriate to at least mention.

I will include my family records below. Please feel free to look up anything it says, as I’ve been told my uncle wrote it, and I’m still trying to find out where he got his information from.



Here is my source for this information as well as Wikipedia, a genealogist I saw told me I could find most things on google if I looked.


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I hope I’m not coming across as a child playing in stuff I shouldn’t be butI hope you find my story at least interesting.

I started drawing murals at 17 that would take up entire walls—this castle, these lands. While I don’t have pictures of most of my drawings, I have a few of my later ones. The ones I do have I’ll have to retrieve and I’ll try to post later if it’s important.



I drew Olmec heads, giant bird people, and the Grand Canyon. I’m still drawing: babies, roads, mountain paths—any and all things—and I have no control or knowledge before or after of anything I’m drawing.

This could be nothing I understand and sometimes they look like utter nonsense but it’s still apart of the journey so I’d like to include it as well.

One was of the basin; it was full of water up to the steps, and according to a Hopi woman I met, those steps did not have water in them as of today.

A few hours after this, I noticed a black mass in her ankle. I mentioned it and asked if I could help. She let me. I began pulling and pushing the energy, and it seemed to be clotted, so I asked her what she did to hurt her foot. She told me it had gotten run over. I did what I could and noticed a black mass in her heart. I tried to take it out of her heart, and the entity grabbed hold of my wrist. I told her I had nowhere to place this being and that it was safer to place it back, and for her to seek her own elders for help. I could not and was not willing to hurt anyone else because of my ignorance. Since then, I’ve tried several times to push energy, and I’ve noticed some people are more comfortable than others—they feel it more. It’s described as a warm tingling crawling up the arm.

I can reach into the center from the finger tips.


Before I left for the Grand Canyon, I met with a medicine man. He placed his hand on my head, and I felt he was searching for something , it was like I had to let him see into me. I did so, however, a giant bird came up and squawked at this poor man. He immediately pulled his hand away, and I apologized. He smiled and very calmly said, “Oh, it’s ok. I’m a crow.”

I was not expecting that, as I mentioned before, I grew up in a very conservative household.

His advice was to push my energy out at least 30 feet like him. He told me I was keeping my energy too close to myself.

He told my mother not to worry, and I left with the knowledge that this man was a crow and there was a bird somewhere around or in me.

I started drawing these birds in full detail; you can read their eyes almost. I called my grandmother, and the only thing she had to say was that these birds were family.

I almost cried—it didn’t make sense. I met a Choctaw woman in an Uber, and I told her about my journey, and she told me to just finish the story.

At this point, all I’ve learned is elders never have a straight answer to give. I was frustrated, and we have giant birds somewhere. I knew there was more to the story, so I kept going.

As this was going on, there was another side of things that didn’t add up with my birds—it felt different, like it came from somewhere else. That’s when I started doing genealogical research on my mother’s side. I will include my family records above Please feel free to look up anything it says, as I’ve been told my uncle wrote it, and I’m still trying to find out where he got his information from.

I feel I cannot speak of some of the things in a public forum, as I feel it would come across in a certain way.
I read a woman’s post on here about her dreams and it didn’t seem like it was met with much enthusiasm. However please don’t think I’m seeking medical help or attention this is all the truth and I hope you can understand I mean no offense.
Before the eclipse, I had a dream about the black sun. There was a woman who scratched a half-moon under my eye—there is more to the scene, but I find it strange mentioning in a public forum. I screamed at a Gregor to leave me alone. I did not know what a Gregor was until I looked it up on Google. I would like to know why I’m yelling at Gregors and how I knew what that was. None of these things were aspects of my research; they are still not I’ve only looked them up on Google. Among other things, I do not understand it, and I feel it’s not my business. These things are not mine, and I feel it best to return them to the right place. I would so appreciate it if I could speak with a mentor because I am utterly confused about what this all means. Please advise me if at all possible, because what I thought would stop is not stopping. That means it must be worked with. The only people I know that work with these things respectfully are you, so please feel free to contact me with any questions. I would be more than honored to be given the opportunity to speak with anyone that can help.

Thank you.

Julia Grace

I’m sorry the uploads are all over the place this the first time I’ve ever been on a forum so it’s my first time uploading files. I hope they are at least available for you to see.

Welcome to the forum. I don't have any sort of experience with indigenous spirituality, and very little in the way of research so I don't have much to provide in terms of that. As far as where sometimes things come from that you know or draw without a clear reason, there can be a lot of different ways that happens. The mind is incredible, how much it picks up, stores, processes and filters before it reaches our conscious mind. It can be drawing upon things from the physical world or elsewhere and it's tough to know which. What is a Gregor, is that the same as an egregor? I've never heard of the term before and wondering if it might be autocorrect or something you have heard from spoken word, but I also may just never have heard of one before.

Welcome. I would gently advise not to use emails for usernames (if it is such), and not to provide personally identifying information online on any platform. There is safety in anonymity, as the internet is not always a kind place.

Yes, it’s the Grigori, I believe it’s Greek in origin. I honestly have no connection to them other than I feel presences around me 24/7, not of any one being, just in general, and this time I had just yelled out something like, “Leave me alone, Grigori.” I’m not sure exactly why. I was in my room alone, and I got tired of feeling this particular presence so strongly; it upset me, so to say, because it was uncomfortable to me. I looked up what it meant and they are something like watchers I don’t know why watchers would be in my room so I let it go for a long time as it didn’t fit into my studies. I still don’t think I actually meant anything by it but it’s still a weird point in the journey right? Why would I yell at them or know to say that in particular? I suppose is my question



I cannot change my username do I need to make a new account?

Just for future reference, really. One should always have their own safety in mind online.

Off the top of my head, if you ever watched Supernatural or read apocrypha, you might have come across the term and forgotten about it. As to feeling the presence and why that could be, it's really hard to say. It seems like there is something about them that is making you very uncomfortable, understandably so. Have you tried anything yet to remove them other than yelling at them to go away? What happened when you yelled that? As far as I'm aware, nobody here works with those either.

I fixed your username to safeguard your privacy.

I’ve not read Apocrypha. I’ve never heard of it, but I will be sure to look it up and read it for future reference.

I have watched the episode with the lycanthrope in Supernatural as a child. You’re totally right; it could just be that. I was just very overwhelmed that day. I don’t usually yell at beings, and I really don’t know why it bothered me so much.

I have not felt the need to remove any presences. I did not feel the need to remove that particular one—just an overwhelming feeling, and I responded to that feeling by yelling for it to go away.

The Grigori is not so much a problem for me; I just wanted to mention my experiences so far and why I’m even interested in these things to begin with.


Thank you for changing it I had accidentally put my email in the username.

I just wanted to add I’ve started reading the apocrypha thank you for the recommendation!

Kelly wrote:I just wanted to add I’ve started reading the apocrypha thank you for the recommendation!

It's a good thing to sometimes dip toes into opposing information sometimes to broaden our perspective, but tread carefully. I certainly don't indorse Apocrypha as accurate occult or biblical information.

Echoing eternal24, it's always best to take new information in with the itent to weigh it against other forms of knowledge. Anything that is told to us must be verified through research and individual praxis. With diligence we can build a strong foundation.