My origin story

Hey all happy to be part of the discussion. I escaped the JW cult about 9 ish years ago.and was looking for guidance so it went like this.

Joined the free masons, quit after the 1st degree because it closely resembled the JW structure with yearly fees. Said nope after 1 year. Next followed the redpill ideology for a while till the basically hate towards women didn't sit right with me. Moved on to meditation, then psychology, to spirituality, and finally Magick...where I am now.

I hope this makes sense but im looking for info and texts that are real, stuff that has escaped the controllers of the world. I feel most info and texts are distractions from The real knowledge, and this is what I'm searching for. Anyway that's a tiny story about me.

Welcome.

Welcome here, too. Asetianism is a deep subject and one that has eluded the "controllers of the world" for about the last 2000 years, remained silent, hidden and secretive, protecting itself patiently beneath an enduring underground in necessary outward strife, however with relative incarnated absence in a materialistic, corrupted age of oppression and persecution under that controlling tyranny but that it is rising once more to their despair of the new and yet very old, ancient return at the rise of the Djehuty of the Serpent, the Second Age of Vampires, where magick, spirit and enlightened thought reclaims a greater throne of dominion, freed from chains of dogma characteristic of the Dark Ages and beyond as means of control and preying upon ignorance for power...

Doesn't mean it's entirely safe, though; far from it, where the initiate is faced with many dangers to overcome on their boat through the night journey, being wedded to the initiatory forces of chaos liberating their teachings through pain and travail of wisdom or the drowning of decay from disrespect, dishonesty or dishonor. It's an adversarial system that yet promotes unbounded freedom but the choices of responsibility entirely in your hands as to wield them; consequences to freely celebrate in the reaping of a harvest in inner wealth or to sometimes gravely learn from its dire results on the other end, which not all overcome but those who remain passionate, strong and loyal in their spirits and honestly seek to overcome flaws, defects and weaknesses of ego in their psycho-spiritual constitutions or nature of Self and so determined to rise from each fall. Walk cautiously yet with the courage of honesty, respect of understanding and wisdom of awareness to guide you on the inner, introspective journey... through self-mastery, evolution and magick...

Much of the concepts I describe make more sense upon study, too, but I wanted to give a brief overview, to answer some of your questions (and perhaps more), but it's up to each how to walk and much of the work is solitary, found in silence as a key notion and cornerstone of the Work; it's a Path finding much of its apotheosis in inner illumination, wisdom, awareness, magickal mastery and conquest of Self.

Welcome to the community. Looking at your nickname, I hope it has no connections to atlantis or any such nonsense, most old timers here are somewhat jaded with that sort of children fairytales mixed in with historical occultism and living traditions, and some even had to deal with that type of atlantean loonies obsessing about us in their past that had to be put in their place. Anyways, beyond that detail I hope that you enjoy your stay and your time around so that you can learn and share what you have learned. There are a lot of talented and experienced occultists here and even though many are not as frequently present as in years of old their contributions and words still echo and teach in what is real gnosis shedding light on the reality of magic and spirituality, in ways beyond the fictions and delusions where so many drown. Good luck, those who persevere sometimes can find their way into more obscure and restricted areas of the community, with groups and servers of discussion and learning.

Thanks for the response. The name Atlanticide has a personal meaning to me, nothing to do with anything you would know. I am really looking forward to some interesting conversations and perhaps knowledge that some will part with.