About me, the worlds most amazing person!

Hi all.

You can call me Laiko by reasons you all know...

Im from Sweden, im 19 years, single and im looking...but thats NOT why I joined this forum.
Besides, im very picky when it comes to a life partner so that explain alot...

How the hell did I start that discussion with myself?

Anyway, as person iam constantly shifting in moods and always see myself trying to balance myself in a tornado of emotions and thoughts.


"Why I joined this extremely small but loyal community?"

That may be what I need right now, ive lost my hope to masses since long ago.


Ive felt tired on a long time now.

Its not my body, ive known that for a long time and its been proven that my body is
healthy...well...pretty healthy by an health inspection.

As said, ive known it for a long time.

Since it all started about 4 years ago or so ive been able to see into myself.

That way I can see my faults and correct them.


Anyway...

I started to work on an theory about my energy needs some weeks ago.

If I cant generate the energy needed to fuel me, why not steal some?


I dont remember why, but I stumbled across the Asetian Bible on Amazon.com.

The beauty of the cover was astonishing.

I dont remember what I felt when I saw it, but I remember I was amazed over it.

It didnt tell me "How to drain energy" but it guided me, started up more parts of me and gave me more philosophical thoughts to think about.



When I was about 15 years (my school years are pretty messed up and I have a pretty bad memory) I went all "emo".

By almost no reasons I felt constantly depressed.

One year later I started to measure my feelings and moods in energy, people probably thought of me as crazy for that >.<

Then I moved school since I was "misplaced"...



After that I have evolved pretty much, iam constantly drawn to the occult arts and I normally see "hidden purposes" people (or humans) wouldnt be able to see.

How about the purpose of war?
The purposes of the human natures?

I call them "hidden purposes" because they are...hidden.

People in my life may see me as an arrogant bastard, but the truth is...

I change my opinions and views if I can see them the same way as the other part see them, the problem is that my surroundings tend to state the obvious.

I havent been able to have an intellectual and rational topic on a long time, especially not about "metaphysics" as I have learned to call it.


Iam an honest and very open person...to a limit.
I let people know me, but I wont let them see whats behind the many closet doors of my mind.

I may walk, eat and study...
But I iam merely awake yet.



And no, I iam not a pretender.

Iam a honest person, why should I lie and live an life of ignorance when im pursuing evolution and enlightenment?

Iam like you, a pursuer of secrets.

I despise those who say they are vampires just because its cool.

It feels wrong...

As long as your feelings are true I find you noble, but if your just going a path because its "just cool" its nothing but an sign of weakness.


You know the funny thing about this?

Ive never been relating to vampires before, until I read the Asetian bible.
Never could I have thought about ending up studying such an dark path.

So many things mentioned in the AB, so much wisdom...

And please note one very important thing here, im not sure iam an reborn Asetian.

I just believe it, as an theory.

I want to know about my past lifes, probably I just have to wait for that ability...

I live in Sweden and since the order is god-knows-where I will never have any confirmation of what iam.

Maybe its an test?
Maybe this was on purpose to see if I can find my way back?
Or an mistake?
But am I on the right path?
Am I an Asetian reborn? or Lycantrophe? or an Draconian? or just an confused human soul who cant find himself inferior?

By some reason, only the last one actually scare me...
But its not logical since the series of events that happened in my life.

I can never be sure, I can just wait and see where the hand of faith will drop me.



This is my long introduction, hope you know now what kind of person iam.

Nice to meet you!

Please have patience with me, my behavior may confuse you sometimes >.<

I can be your mascot...or wise-ass

NOTE: Does this forum lack an "edit post" function?

Hello and welcome, Laiko. I hope you can continue to learn and grow while here. And yes, there is no edit button =P

I would say more but right now is not the best time for me (nor am I all that open of a person as of late).

Welcome to Vampirism Forum, Laiko.

Aghrab

Laiko, welcome to this forum.

Let me just comment on one of your sentences:

"Am I an Asetian reborn? or Lycantrophe? or an Draconian? or just an confused human soul who cant find himself inferior?"

Your biggest responsibility is to find out who and what you are, and accept it, and from there evolve. There is no "inferior" nature of the soul, just different levels of evolution, and different paths, whether as a vampire or not. Inferior is the blindness that keeps you locked inside the material shell.

S.

Syrianeh wrote:
Your biggest responsibility is to find out who and what you are, and accept it, and from there evolve. There is no "inferior" nature of the soul, just different levels of evolution, and different paths, whether as a vampire or not. Inferior is the blindness that keeps you locked inside the material shell.

S.

Accept and evolve im good at.

Just that the phase of acceptance aint beautiful >.<


Thanks for the welcomes

Welcome to the forum Laiko.

Welcome Laiko.

Hello Laiko, now that's a long introduction text. It's good to have you here and hope you stay part of the community for a very long time. Welcome!

Jonathan

Welcome Laiko. It is good to see you on the forum.

Thanks for all the welcomes.

I really feel welcomed now T_T